I’m sitting here, writing this post, when I know I should be heading over to Amazon to publish my long-overdue second book.
Oh, and before I hopped on here, I checked Twitter for interesting writing articles, laughed at funny cartoons on Facebook and uploaded a new photo on Instagram. I also did three loads of laundry, cleaned the top of the fridge (I’m not kidding!) and sat in the sun while chatting with my mom on the phone. In my defense on that last one, it is a beautiful Spring day and I love my mom.
And now I’m writing this. And if you couldn’t figure it out–I’m a procrastinator. Is it fear? Lack of confidence? Second thoughts about this writing thing? The enormous challenge of finding readers? Yes. All of it. And more.
I wrote in my previous post that I already published my first book. Done. It’s out there. So why am I struggling to release this second one? The one that should’ve been done and published a few months after the first. What happened this past year?
Maybe you’ve experienced these problems. Or maybe you haven’t. There are so many writers I admire. Those writers not only finish their books, but get them ready for publication and then send them out there. It’s so easy for them. Or maybe it isn’t and they just make it look easy. Maybe we all fight our own demons and some people are stronger and more courageous than others.
I’d like to think of myself as courageous. I do have courageous moments or my first novel wouldn’t be out there right now. I’m looking for that moment again, when I can ignore all those pretty little distractions and publish my second book–finally.
I will write this here and now. I will publish that book in the next week. I’ve written it to all of you and I will do it. Will it change the world? Will anyone but me care? It doesn’t matter. It only matters that I do it and know that I am one of those courageous writers I admire.
Look for it soon.
Hey–I think that dirty floor in the bathroom is calling me. 🙂