I was hoping I could mention the amazing writing I’ve been doing lately. Emotional poetry, journal entries, the beginnings of new stories. But it seems all I can write are letters and cards to my friends.
However, I’ve been thinking a lot. There’s so much going around in my mind, that I’m having a hard time with the simple everyday stuff. (Still need to pay the rest of those bills). And I have a time limit right now because next Wednesday on the 31st, I’m headed to surgery. I want and need all the simple, easy stuff done and organized. It’ll take everything I have to focus on getting through the surgery and then the recovery.
The surgery relates to female problems and it’s something that is fairly common for women. But there’s an additional problem with this one. Afterward, I don’t know how long, I’ll find out if I have cancer.
You would think this situation would inspire me to write all those poems and journal and memoir entries. I have been contemplating my memoir and I am writing this post, but other than that, nothing. Maybe this is all I can write at the moment. And maybe that’s okay. Maybe if I receive a negative diagnosis, I’ll write more, but maybe I won’t.
Life is fast and short, no matter who we are. I’ve known people who lived into their nineties but they said the same thing. We’re not promised a lot of years or any years at all. I’m blessed to still have life at fifty. So many babies never see one year and too many children never get to graduate high school.
So maybe I should be working on my memoir or writing a new poem. Maybe I should look at every day as a gift, but here’s the thing about human beings. We are typically ungrateful, don’t appreciate the present and don’t always think about the future. We take everything for granted, even if we try not to. That’s just us, and it takes a lot of work to change that attitude. But I know some amazing people who have changed and live their lives in constant appreciation and awe. Beautiful souls who make other people better just by being around them. I have some of those people in my life and I adore them. They make me better and stronger and way more appreciative.
I was lying down earlier and I knew I wanted to write one more post before my surgery next week. I wanted to share my thoughts and feelings about what’s been happening with me and what may come. And I want to express my gratitude to you. If you’re a regular reader, or if you just came across this now, thank you. Thank you for reading. I hope you’re having a great day and an even better life. Enjoy every moment and don’t take anything for granted. Go for it all with an appreciative and blessed heart and life will have beautiful meaning for you.
Life may be fast and short, but you can still live it the way you want, be the best version of yourself and leave the best, most inspirational, lasting impressions.
The Second Chance Writer 